Everything That Starts With A Smile Will Always End Up With Tears.

For you i would do anything.
I will not trade you for the world, for my dreams and for my happiness.
You are the only thing that matters to me most. I will sacrifice all that i have just to be with you, close to you. People come and go, friends come and go, lovers come and go and parents stay and go but i do not want you to go anywhere, just stay with me.. I'm sick and tired of running and chasing for those who's neglecting me.

I've had enough, no i have had more than enough.
Everything i do, i just want you to be happy but it seems like i'm taking the wrong short cut to happiness.. I am sorry, really am but i just can't help it. I wanna be closer to you.. It hurts me every time when we say goodbye.. I have so many things in my mind but i just can't express myself.. sigh... what can i do.. i'm sick and tired..... help me.......................................................................

The One

I've been dating all the perfect strangers, none of them seems like THE ONE for me. I'm not sure if THE ONE will ever appear in this life but i am praying so hard that he is THE ONE for me now. I have been so lost for so long, didn't know what i really wanted till i met him. Everyone is gonna think that this is just some crap. Well i don't care, because i believe that he can be THE ONE for me. Understanding is what i need most, for those who don't understand i won't give a damn about it. I am doing whats best for myself and my life. Have a little faith in me. I trust and i believe that he's truly THE ONE that i love right now, this moment and i hope it will last.
Time will prove you wrong if you don't believe me this time.
I am sorry for those i have hurt before, Sometimes we just don't click and we can't change the fact. No matter what they do, they're still not THE ONE and they never will be.

My Love,
You just keep doing those silly things that keep me wanting more. I don't know how you do it.. I always use the word SPECIAL to most of those nice guys and stuff but baby, you are UNIQUE. This is the best word to describe what i feel for you. You never judge me, you never have any intention and you never believe those rumors that people said.. You always listen to me. Every single words you said to me are the sweetest words i ever heard before. It touches my heart.. I don't wanna play love games anymore, it is not fun.. Win or lose there's always pain. I really wanna keep this relationship stable and strong.. I mean it.. This ain't a joke anymore. I'm not gonna do anything stupid that will break us.. This is time, time for me to address you as THE ONE.. Hope you will always stay the same no matter what happens. <3>

This Is What We Call Life*

What are we waiting for.. No, What am I waiting for?

I have no idea, not at all. Darkness is always there waiting for me.. Will I get what I ever wanted? Sacrifice had been made.. What else can I do? I feel so lost, so miserable. I will never be who I wanna be.. Dreams are lies.. Miracles are dreams.. I guess i'm just living in a lie.. I have been waiting for this very precious miracle to happen but it never.. Hatred, Anger and Pain is all that I have in this life.. Who will take away all the pain that i have inside me? No one has the power to take it all away.. There used to be someone but that someone took it for granted.. He took everything even the best of me and left me nothing but hatred and pain.

I've bleed, i've drowned, i've cried, i've praise the lord and i've begged.. Begged for shelter, for love, for eternity, for a happy family and for mercy.. They said god will always send an angel to protect us but i never believed god even though i'm a christian.. I know god is playing game on us.. No one can predict our destiny but god.. For the path that he had given me, i've been through alot.. Happiness and sorrows.. I should thank him already but i would be pleased if he had sent me a devil.. Because in reality we need to be cruel and evil to go on with our lives.

Being a sinner isn't a bad thing, at least better than those who had never done anything stupid with their lives.. I praise the lord but i can't follow the laws.. Laws of being a good person.. I believe everyone has the light that shines deeply inside them.. We should follow the light but not whats written on the bible.. Because we can't just wait for god to save us.. There's nothing he can do.. Candle is burning like how my heart is burning.. pain.. i feel pain..

Is this me?