What are we waiting for.. No, What am I waiting for?I have no idea, not at all. Darkness is always there waiting for me.. Will I get what I ever wanted? Sacrifice had been made.. What else can I do? I feel so lost, so miserable. I will never be who I wanna be.. Dreams are lies.. Miracles are dreams.. I guess i'm just living in a lie.. I have been waiting for this very precious miracle to happen but it never.. Hatred, Anger and Pain is all that I have in this life.. Who will take away all the pain that i have inside me? No one has the power to take it all away.. There used to be someone but that someone took it for granted.. He took everything even the best of me and left me nothing but hatred and pain.
I've bleed, i've drowned, i've cried, i've praise the lord and i've begged.. Begged for shelter, for love, for eternity, for a happy family and for mercy.. They said god will always send an angel to protect us but i never believed god even though i'm a christian.. I know god is playing game on us.. No one can predict our destiny but god.. For the path that he had given me, i've been through alot.. Happiness and sorrows.. I should thank him already but i would be pleased if he had sent me a devil.. Because in reality we need to be cruel and evil to go on with our lives.
Being a sinner isn't a bad thing, at least better than those who had never done anything stupid with their lives.. I praise the lord but i can't follow the laws.. Laws of being a good person.. I believe everyone has the light that shines deeply inside them.. We should follow the light but not whats written on the bible.. Because we can't just wait for god to save us.. There's nothing he can do.. Candle is burning like how my heart is burning.. pain.. i feel pain..
Is this me?
